WHY

I am not sure why I do things I do, say the things I say and all that I feel that makes my feeling in a disarray...I know when the words come out, I can see your eyes screaming (WHY). I can hear your heart silently break (WHY). I am sure you wonder what you have done to make me say the things I say, do the things I do and why my feelings are in a disarray... is it because I am disaster?! Is it because I’ve been so hurt by you that my heart is numb?! Hardened?!.... Do I even still love you?! Do I still adore you?! I must have a hole in my heart to not realize my actions and words hurt the one I love so dearly. I want to say I am sorry! So sorry that I keep coming to this stump. I need to pause to see and feel again! Because baby I can’t keep going on making you feel worst than I am. Sometimes I wonder.... will I ever feel for you as I did?... I never thought my heart would be so black. I do know one thing! My heart still proves to yearn for you, for your love and affection. This must be proof that true love can and will never die!!! We have tried to run from this love that we share but our souls crave this so called magic that we share...I love you always and forever!