Emptiness

Have you ever had one horrific event in your life where it completely robs you of your soul and sanity?! Then the next day you wake up unable to feel anything because your nerves have all simultaneously died that day of the horrific event and you can no longer register the what and how it happened. At first, the refusal to believe that the people you trusted could betray you so callously! 

When you start a new chapter in your life, and share it with people... they have all this faith in you that you don’t even have in yourself... the horrific event enabled you to feel incapable of having any faith in yourself...it even robbed you of having any interest to putting effort towards the greater good... so why can’t you find the spark that you once had? Why do you just keep going with the flow of things and not setting any expectations for progress? It’s like a monster that has taken over... an emptiness.... no passion for anything.....no soul... all self doubt....